It sucks sometimes man, I’ve been dreaming all my life to be something.. to be somebody, I want it so bad I damn near cry when I see other people living the life I wish I had and just right now being hurt and not being able to prove that I should be there makes it sucks more, my aunt always tells me thank God for delays in life and I know deep down that’s true and its a reason for stuff but damn when u just sitting here and u don’t know why then its so hard to cope, I’ve made mistakes to choose not to do something out of fear and not believing in myself and I regret it all the time, and I still get those feelings every time its time for me to do what I think I can but I won’t let them fully stop me, I rather try and fail, I just hope I don’t have to go that much further wishing things were different, damn…